Some transformations are created
through anguish.
You break.
But each time,
you are restored,
though not to the
same person you were.
There is purpose in the alchemical fires of loss.
What burns away are attachments.
What does the burning is God.
What’s left is a chastened and wiser soul
in deeper communion with the sacred.
Spiritual transformation continues throughout life
as God remakes our being
until there is nothing left but love.
The deeper love’s bond, the deeper
the pain of loss.
Whether from death, abandonment,
betrayal, or abuse,
grief surges in the body,
at times unstoppable.
Yet the body incarnates God’s bliss-filled nature.
How to reconcile this contradiction?
You are not this dream of loss.
You are God watching you suffer
from a story you keep repeating.
One day, you will step out of your dream into Creation
to inhabit a body of love, joy, and wonder.
Perhaps one purpose of pain in this lifetime is
transcending the dream.
Was that part of your plan?
When the heart breaks
and confidence in the future crumbles,
we are left alone in the shattered moment with God.
But, if we try, we can feel holiness surrounding us,
gently caressing body and soul.
Collapsed in sacred embrace,
we breathe deeply,
inhaling spirit
then we rise and go into the day,
fire rekindled until the next shock
calls us back into the mystical presence.
Again and again we learn
God is more available, and known more deeply,
in defeat than victory.
I Am God 